"bonding"

Can I just say that I'm tired of being pushed to go out? I'm tired of it. Mr B showed me the results of a Jung personality test he'd taken, and it was spot on for him. So I took one, and let's just say it's perfect. My type "do[es] quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries."

Yes, let me just say again, lot's of superficial people here in Law School. So I do quite well in groups save groups of superficial people/interactions. And I need time to recharge. And the thing is, most people my age don't seem to get the recharge idea. I'm social, but I have my introvert moments. I need that time to myself so that I can be social, otherwise I just get cranky and unpleasant. I also just easily tire of stupid people. If you know me, you know I don't suffer fools well. It's either my largest fault or one of the best things about me. I suppose it depends on how you look at it. I'm typically not a very patient person to begin with (unless I'm dealing with the needy or something I've very intrigued by) and so add in fools/the stupid and I just can't handle it. So drunken idiots parading behind masks of decency, or compassion, or some semblance of a good person just annoy me. I tire of games and charades.

This all sounds very negative I know. But I know my friends and I love them. There are just few real friends in Waco. The rest are just people. And many of those people very much annoy me. I can tolerate them most of the time, but being forced to 'bond' just hits a nerve and I no longer feel the need to exert energy on a group I know are not friends for a variety of reasons. I've been here ten months. There are few that I'm not already friends with that are capable of still becoming friends. Callous I know. But I am a person of few friends and many acquaintances. By few I mean I do not have HUNDREDS of friends. Some of my friends are those amazing people who are actually capable of having hundreds of friends. I am not. I enjoy close relationships with my friends and then have hundreds of acquaintances. Just the way I am.

So here I am, on another Friday night, cursed with either being deemed anti-social because I just want to snuggle down in bed and watch tv or suffering through a social 'bonding' experience at some overpriced loud bar.

Am I just getting too old for this scene? I'll be 25 soon. Is that old enough to stop going to bars three times a week like all these other goons. I can swing getting drinks once every two weeks, but honestly, I'd rather crash at someone's house and sip some wine while gossiping or watching a movie. Loud bars just seem, well, loud. I could spend $10 on a bottle of wine and enjoy an evening with friends, or I could spend close to $50 at a bar with people I don't know well or don't like. Sorry guys, guess I'm 'anti-social'. The only time I've ever had fun going out or to a bar is in a small group of my friends and to comparatively quiet bars. Then we can park ourselves at a small table and chat, catch-up.

So here I am, contemplating reasons to give for not going out. I might just ignore the fact that there's a law school party and enjoy some snuggly tv time.