I'm doing that upward climb again. I keep looking up, straining my neck, knowing the top of the hill is soon and from there it's a smooth coast for a few weeks. Honestly, I'm tired. My neck hurts and my eyes are blurry. I feel more like I'm stumbling up this hill than really climbing it.
My boyfriend surprised me Friday night. He said we were going to dinner and a movie, which in and of itself is usually a treat. Then he took me to a spa for a two hour massage instead of seeing a movie. He followed it up by bringing me a cocktail dress from home and leaving them for me, so that when I was done with the massage I had nice clothes to wear. We proceeded to dinner downtown. It was really a lovely evening and so very very romantic.
I promptly felt guilty, as it cheered me up for the evening, but I proceeded to be brought back down the next day upon realizing, yet again, the enormous amount of work ahead. I enjoyed myself so much, and yet I felt I ruined some of it for him by being down again the next day. I just really am not sure I have it in me to sustain happiness until this quarter is over. I need to be away from this town for more than a week or weekend. I also need to be around my family and friends and still be able to have some alone time, just me, my pjs, chocolate and the tv (or a book).
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